I got unexpected news from my Grandma tonight

I’ve been out of touch with my family for too long. Christmas was amazing, I saw a lot of people I love; and it was fantastic. The best holiday in atleast 5 years.

Tonight Grandma told me Gramps has a growth under his arm that might be cancerous. They’re waiting to hear back about the biopsy. He can’t do much that requires his arm right now due some pain.

He’s the strongest man I know, with the biggest heart and I keep crying because it’s just so shitty if cancer is going to kill him. He should go out like some kind of hero, not withered and weak like my Dad did.

I offered to help as much as possible. I’ll drive him to and from chemo, and do whatever else I can to make this period easy on the two of em. I love em more than anyone in the world; and I feel so helpless.

Realistically, this will probably be nothing. It should be nothing. It’s hitting me hard ’cause well, when you lose a parent to cancer… it’s just not something you want anyone else you love to experience.

[ 0C ] [ January 31, 2008 ] [ Misc ]